What she was saying is that I didn't have to stand in own shadow. I could stand in my light. I could be a source of light. Whereever I go, there I am. Whereever you go, there are. So you can go on blaming, complaining and wondering or you can breathe deep, step forward in your life and find out for yourself.Read More
I have been home for 1 full hour. Just got back from a month long adventure in Australia. We took our daughter Emily (emJ) on a birthday trip to see her best mate Mina. It’s something we’ve been saving for since she & her family moved away! After dropping the bags and having a shower I sat down to glimpse at the almost 2000 photos/videos we took on our trip. As I do this, one stands out. One moves me to tears. One picture, for me, transcends the image itself to tell a story that both Ryann and I are proud of. The pic is the one above!!
Orgin of Picture
On our final day in Australia we were scooting around Melbourne city centre and happened upon a dope Graffiti spot called Hosier Lane. I took many pics of this alley, but we came upon an image of the Indian Deity Ganesha (remover of obstacles) and instantly thought, ‘let’s do some yoga pics'. Haha, like no one has ever done that before with this art. emJ spoke up, “Can I take one of you and mommy?"
Power of The Picture
When I saw it, I began to cry. The tears were so full. Full of sadness, full of joy, and full of immense celebration. As I looked at it, I saw the entire journey Ryann and I have taken… I saw each moment that brought us to this picture. The root of what I saw is “PRACTICE.” This amazing and beautiful thing we call yoga practice.
Ryann and I divorced over two years ago now. Fuck, divorce is tough, especially if one partner doesn’t want it. It can easily go to a place where your pain starts makin’ your choices, and you end up creating more and more hurt. In the toughest moments… the most painful moments, we returned to a deliberate breath. Anger, guilt, fear & doubt were rising quickly, so one day we literally looked at each other and said, “yoga divorce.” All these amazing things we've learned on the mat, it's time to live it in a real & empowering way. We literally said, ‘let’s make the divorce our yoga practice.
It was so f’ing hard, hardest thing I have ever been a part of. By returning to practice over and over and over and over again, we got more clear on a simple truth, ‘we can do hard things.’ All of that effort, all of those years or pain and tears, and then I see this pic. Here we are, divorced, and on a family trip for a month to Australia. This picture reminded me of the work we did and how we have to keep returning to our practice. Over and over again. Return to a deliberate breath and live a deliberate life.
What obstacles do you need to remove?
For us, the obstacles were fear, guilt, doubt and jealousy (me specifically on that one). These these things were blocking the flow of love and healing. We removed them. And guess what, they f'ing come back. So we return to deliberate breath over and over again. It's practice. Our divorce was yoga practice.
All the hard work you do on the mat, has a direct connection to your life off the mat. So the question I ask remains, 'what obstacles do you need to remove?'