My intention share comes in the form of a COLAB with my homegirl Emily Buck. She is an incredible yoga teacher in LA and I’ve seen her grow so much in the past two years. She in an inspiring young woman, def take some time to check her IG FEED and her blog.
This past year she has been on some WILD adventures and last week as she hiked this big mountain and found some solitude. She reflected and posted this on Instagram. This post started us vibin’ and the convo created a great intention for practice.
Solitude. One of the reasons I wanted to come out here. To walk and be with my own thoughts for miles. To see what lies underneath all the distractions of the city and the people... // Who am I when everything is stripped away? // The answer: Patience, Kindness, Forgiveness, Laughter, Presence, Freedom, Peace, Love JOY.
I commented, that we must also let our practice remind us that these things (patience, kindness, etc) are available to us right in the midde of the noise too. The practice is called SAMADHI. To step into the middle of our life and cultivate all the things that we would find in solitude.
From that, she reflected more & wrote this beautiful poem that she posted to IG the next day. It became our intention for practice.
I need not depend
or a creek
trickling by to feel
my own nature.
An entire forest
lives with me,
all that is needed
is my willingness to walk in.
- E.B. WILD -
ON THE MAT
The truth is each of us have ‘noise’ in our life. But not all of us have the opportunity to do what Emily did, go climb a mountain on her own. Many of us have jobs that keep us here, kids, jobs, etc etc. So we come to our mat. Right here, right now is our chance to realize that we have everything we need to step into the middle of our noise and be patient and kind with it. We have the power to forgive and the ability to laugh.
Coming to our mat is in many ways an act of solitude. But we must be deliberate with our efforts. The act of TUNING IN so we don’t tune out. This is our work for todays class. Today lets open up and cultivate a willingness to walk into our forest. We can connect to our nature, here…now.
As we moved through the Modo Class we returned this work of tuning in. Noticing how frustrating some postures are in our body. And right in the middle of the toughest part we can be present and empower our presence. When the noise of our own thoughts rise, we can calm them and rock that posture in our body.
As we came to final Savasana I encouraged students to be still and lay a little longer then they normally would. Before they leave their mat and go back into the noise of their life, just be still and tune in. Be still and remind yourself that you have everything you need to step into the middle of ‘your’ noise with patience and kindness.
OFF THE MAT
I love the opening of Emily’s poem, “I need not depend on rocks or trees, or a creek…” Sometimes we can get to place where we think our happiness depends on another person or a thing, or perhaps a situation working out the way we want it to. If we start to depend on something, what happens when it’s pulled away from us? We suffer greatly.
I did this with Ryann and it really strained our marriage. Instead of growing together we grew apart. I leaned on her to much and it really hurt her. When we divorced I thought I would never be happy again. In the pain, I really felt that my happiness depended on our family being together. In the first few months I found lot’s of ways to avoid the pain. I knew it was there and I sat with it, but I wasn’t willing to sit in the middle of it.
With the help of my Dharma teacher Poep Sa, Frank Jude Boccio, I dived into the solitude of my yoga mat and meditation cushion. With deliberate effort I began to see that I was stronger then I gave myself credit for. I started to see that I liked to play the blame game. I realized that the noise was mostly in my thoughts. An entire forest lived within me and I grew my willingness to walk in and connect to my own nature. What happened when I did this work?
I awoke to a simple truth: my happiness does not depend on any one thing or any one person. I awoke to my nature. I awoke forgiveness, laughter, presence, freedom, peace, love & lots of JOY.
Thank you Emily Buck Wild for the colab this week. See you in the noise of LA soon, I’m coming to teach in November & December.
FAVE PLAYLIST FROM THIS WEEK
- fave playlist this week came from yesterday's Modo Flow class. It was our teacher Brandyn's birthday and I made a playlist for her. She was in class along with 5 other teachers. It was a special celebration.
- IMPORTANT NOTE: you will need Apple Music to hit this playlist. Just click the pic!